In english it really sucks but...

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Cancer’s road is a road of many tracks.

You do not know how and when or where your access point was to this highway of multiple channels that come and go, roads that go up and down, some exits that lead nowhere and –––others that end abruptly without reaching anything ... 

you are riding like a zombie on that roller coaster and you simply respond to the moment… if it rises slowly you get excited with expectation, if it remains static, you wallow between doubt and bewilderment and when it goes off into the void you are terrified with speed and vertigo.

From time to time you cry. Other times you laugh.

This Thursday I will have my lung’s surgery. Today is Tuesday. 

I woke up very early, got up and washed the wound from the recent surgery that is still healing, then prepared a coffee and I sat down to write these lines.

I realized that writing gives me strength. Maybe reading what I write gives me another perspective on what happens to me and let me see the good and the bad of this story. The good? It has made me realize the great blessings I have in my life. Feel loved. Re-finding friends I didn't know about in a long time ...

Lately I tend to be sad and reading can make me smile, reading the comments of friends gives me encouragement and hope; I had not written since the operation because I did not feel very positive but on Thursday, in two days, I undergo surgery again and I am writing to ask you (again) to put me in your prayers.

 I need them.

I hope this last operation is that: the last. And that this transit of mine through cancer ends here. Sometimes happens. Sometimes it doesn't happen.

I will keep writing. And painting. And designing.

go fund me? in English

I shouldn't be writing today. There are still 6 days until July 15, which is the date on which I have been reviewing this path of cancer, but circumstances compel me to advance my dissertation.

The Guest continues with me. After the rectoscopy where the tumor of the rectum did not appear, I was convinced that somehow the history of the rectum was ending at least and that  we would continue with the lung ... I was happy!

But it didn't last long ...

To be able to enter the “watch & wait” program led by brazil and which consists of a strict follow-up with exams every two months and thus not having to go through that operation so… so… SO, well… I had to have an MRI and whoosh! There, glued to my sacrum, in the fat of my rectum, tremendous ganglion, of almost two cm, laughing at me and saying to me: from that operation you are not saved, dear Giselita!

And that's my situation right now. I definitely have to have a colostomy and recession of the area, now, and later on, laparoscopy of the lung. What a prospect!

Originally, we always contemplated surgery would be done in the Costa Rican social security fund (CCSS), while chemotherapy and radiotherapy we made it private. And what happened?

The covid-19 arrived and cases are increasing in numbers every day. Public health is slow and with the greatest attention focused on the pandemic.

 My oncologist no longer works at the CCSS hospital, he left it last April and now he is in the cancer group that has treated me for chemo.

 With the covid-19 I lost the follow-up appointment from the social and when I sent someone to take it out, they did not give appointments because of the virus ...

 

Now I have to go to the hospital to see how I can follow up again if I want to have surgery at the CCSS. We know that they are hours waiting to be attended and even more without an appointment (having one, in normal times, I have been up to 3 hours sitting there waiting  and then the CCSS has a waiting list for surgeries...in the middle of a pandemic, the outlook is not very favorable for my case ... and I am very afraid ...

The operation should be the 12th week after finishing the radio. We are in week 11. 

My hope is to be able to be operated by my usual oncologist, the one who has guided me and led me down this path ...

The funds have already reached the bottom. As it sounds ... and the private operation between the operating room, hospitalization, and medical equipment exceeds $ 20,000 dollars.

My children are starting a gofundme today hoping to raise this amount as quickly as possible so that I can have surgery within 10 days.

Martin refuses to do it, says that asking for money is very ugly, but my children insisted and the truth be told, we need it ... if I can have surgery with my doctor and in a private clinic quickly, without having to be alone in the hospital waiting a long time, without To know how or when I will be able to undergo surgery, and with the fear that the ideal time for surgery will pass and that the disease progresses...I that is possible I would breathe easier.

We made my e-commerce page www.gisati.com with the idea of ​​selling my paintings and designs that I have to collect funds for all this, but time is beating us ...

Today my post is practical. I have a lot to say and share about these past days, but as they say: first things first.

I appreciate you if you can help me, if you can't I thank you for sharing the gofundme and as my daughter says, little by little it will be achieved.

Posted by from here at 16:22